Weekend Revelation

So I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about what exactly I am going to do with the next several years of my life, because around August is when it wall come to a head and if one hasn't already been made, it will be decision time. I have had it told to me that depending on where I am my ideas about what I want to do with my life changes. And I agree with that statement. If I am back home in Monett, living there would be cool, working or having my own land with cattle and such. When I travel to a bigger city (STL, KC, DC) that life is very appealing as well. When I am in Springfield I think more about volunteering in the various programs I have applied for. About the only thing my brain can agree with itself on is that wherever life leads me, it will be away from Springfield. 9_9

(ps. thats an exhausted smiley face, notice the bags under the eyes)

I just got back from a trip to STL, literally like less than an hour ago, and I had a lot of time during the weekend and on the drive home to work through my situations as objectively as I could. I want to do something that I enjoy, working with people my own age, with similar ideas to my own while still having the freedom to have my own ideas, I don't want to go backwards financially, I don't want to miss opportunities anywhere.

Opportunities...theres a bit I could talk about. I have been told to examine my choices in life thus far, because I may miss opportunities somewhere else. But isn't every decision you make cutting off possible opportunities? You take one hoping it will pan out and perhaps present you with equal if not better opportunities in other circumstances. So its pretty much a leap of faith for me. Forgoing one opportunity to take advantage of another.

One of the things I have come to learn about myself is that I cannot make decisions aimed at pleasing the most number of people. I need to make my own decisions while listening to and respecting the opinions of my friends and family